Sometimes at times such as this

I always had a lot of things in my mind, all the time but as much as my mind had it all, my fingers couldn't type them. Time is such a commodity. I have even lost sense on how to blog anymore. I need to start. Begin. Again, this is what exactly I had been telling myself for the last 3 years!

Seemingly lost in time and priorities of life. To many sudden happenings in the family. Work! Reasons! Reasons! Reasons! Why am I so defensive? Why can't I just put aside my ego and admit I have lost touch to blogging? It is becoming more difficult to pen my thoughts.

What do I want? As for now, I wish to do this. Or rather I wish someone would hold my hands and take me along like this. Or maybe, I should be holding a smaller hand and go places?

Which is which? It doesnt really matter, as long as the heart is happy and new places are explored. Sorrows are left behind, smile is taken everywhere. Sigh! Wishful thoughts :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdcAN3dobz4

Prelude of A Song

Three comments today and that to for older posts. Never expected that readers actually scroll through old posts and I wonder what made them go back to older posts. Perhaps, minds alike? Well, old posts or new posts, that is immaterial. As far as I am concerned, all my posts are important and I made them whole heartedly. They all mean something to me. Excitedly, I read those comments and approved them one by one for publishing. At the same time I read the those commented posts as well. They all had something in common. They all could stir emotional typhoons in ones mind and heart, perhaps both! 

Ironically I think those comments were made by the same person, he/she used an open pseudonym. Just like me, that person too would like to be "unknown". Hmm.... the last comment was made on a song post,  "Vellai Pura Ondru" which I posted sometime in 2011. Sigh!! to be specific, it was 15Dec2011. I was taken back to in time as I read the post, it was a very short write-up of just a few lines. Merely few lines, but it had a lot of impact on me. The shorter the write-ups are the more I had camouflaged my feelings. Guess I know why I posted about it. My mind wandered, re-winded just like an old cassette. Afterall, I came from the cassette generation and saw the evolution to what we have now! 

I played the song in the post, the prelude itself was...fuhh berjiwang (feelings oh feelings..he he lol). Damn, here I am at office and I have 2 deadly datelines on my desk to be completed before 5pm. How dare I daydream (yes, end of the day it had been just a dream, beautiful one but with lots of not so beautiful impacts). How dare I reminisce and sort of enjoyed that moment.  So many incidents flashed in my mind, I smiled to myself and just as I was about to rewind further my handphone rang. It felt like a splash with cold water on my face. Zapped me back to reality!! It was a very familiar name on the screen and I smiled even wider. That person was not exactly the person whom I was thinking of but we were good old buddies at that phase of time, heck! even now we are but just that we hadn't met for years. Perhaps we have some soul connection. LoL. 

Sarcastically, I thanked him for bringing me back to present and even more cynically he told that "I should be spanked and have a pay cut for daydreaming during work"! It brought us both to burst in laughter. Remembering, good old days where sarcasm was all our friendship was, at least in the eyes of strangers. Just as I was not done with one flashback, my second flashback is waiting in que, he he lol.

Anyway, I better get back to work now before my mind takes me elsewhere. Darn, those deadlines are starring at me, I better sort that out before I am sorted out. Lol...Have a nice day :)

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Unnei kaanadha kannum kannalla.....

One of my all time favourites. Hmmm suddenly had an urge to listen to this song amid my busy schedule today. The dates maybe? Memories, perhaps a much stronger reason. Doesn't date and memories go along?? Don't they walk hand in hand? Perhaps! Perhaps so. Just another evening drive home accompanied by lots of momories :)

"Nee enthan kovil, naan anggu theebam. Deivathin munne neeyum naanum veeralla!"
"Nee taruvayo, naan taruvenno? Yaar tanthe pothum neeyum naanum veeralla!"

Starry, Sarry Night

Don McLean - Vincent ( Starry, Sarry Night) Withs Lyrics
Source : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxHnRfhDmrk

"Now I think I know what you tried to say to me."
"They would not listen. They're not listening still. Perhaps they never will!"

Used to listen to this song every day before bed at one point of time. I would just close my eyes, put on my earphone and quietly curl on my bed with my favorite pillow. Most times I have tears rolling down my cheek and seeping into my pillow. It is as though I shift whatever I feel to the pillow. In another word, shift it our of my heart. Soon, without I realize I would have dozed off. Yet, I could hear the music in my head like a lullaby all nite long!!!

Vellai Pura Ondru

The best era of Rajini and I liked him, heck loved him in these roles. More humane and realistic.

"neeyum naanum serndha bodhu kodai maargazhi
pirindha pinbu poovum kooda suduvadhenna kaadhali
thudupizhandhum kaadhal oadam dhisai maranadadhu paingiLi
poagum vazhi nooRanadhe kaNNeerinaal saeRanadhe
illadha uRavukku naan seyyum abhishekam"

Vizhiyille En Vizhiyille

"One song that came out at the right moment. reflects my feelings at that point and probably even now. Somehow, i feel a strong connection with the lyrics. Memories are the worst enemy of a man! Ggrr....!!"

Vizhiyile En Vizhiyile Kanavugal Kalaindhadhe
Uyirile Ninaivugal Thalumbudhe
Kannangalil Kanneer Vandhu Un Peyarai Eazhudhudhe
Muththamitta Udhadugal Ularudhe
Naan Ennai Kaanaamal Dhinam Unnai Thedinen
En Kanneer Thuliyil Namakkaaga Oru Maalai Soodinen (Vizhiyile)

Imaigalile Kanavugalai Vidhaiththene
Ragasiyamaai Neerootri Valarththene
Ingu Verum Kaatrile Naan Viral Neettinen
Un Kaiyodu Kai Seraththaan
Un Uravum Illai En Nizhalum Illai
Ini En Kaadhal Tholai Dhooramdhaan
Naan Saambal Aanaalum En Kaadhal Vaazhume
Andha Saambal Meedhum Unakkaaga Sila Pookkal Pookkume (Vizhiyile)

Ullirukkum Idhayaththukku Enai Puriyum
Yaarukkuththaan Nam Kaadhal Vidai Theriyum
Kaadhal Siragaanadhu Indru Sarugaanadhu
En Ul Nenjam Udaigindradhu
Un Paadhai Yedhu En Payanam Adhu
Pani Thirai Ondru Maraikkindradhu
Yen Indha Saabangal Naam Paavam Illayaa
Vidhi Kannaamoochchi Vilayaada Nam Kaadhal Bommayaa (Vizhiyile)

Source : http://moviesonglyrics.blogspot.com/2010/11/vizhiyile-en-vizhiyile.html

Unnei kaanadha kannum kannalla.....

Nee enthen kovil, naan angge theebam. Theivathin munne neeyum naanum veeralle!!
Simply beautiful!

Kadal meengal - Thaalaattuthe vaanam - Ilaiyaraaja

One of my favourite 80s and what always reminds me of Sujatha is her romancing role in this song!! Kamal, always the perfect pair for romancing scenes which is never vulgar!! RIP Sujatha!

Pogathe - Go away not

Go away not
Even if you went
Presence of you
Is to stay
FOREVER........

Ninaivugal Nenjinil

"Ennei Enneke Pidikavillai, Karanam kethal teriyavillai!". This sentence had crossed my mind countless times at one point of time in my life. There are painful occasions in my life which I can neither forget, let go nor talk about. Never the less, I just smile at it, rub it of my shoulders and walk on. 

This man turned to liquor to forget his "love"!! Although, it is a man who is potrayed in this song, but there are many females out there who share the same pain. 

To me life simply has to goes on no matter what and there are many other reasons to look forward. It is ok to fall but how quick you grab life back and stand up is what matters!! 

ps : Thanks to Director Cheran for a wonderful movie and amazing flash-backs! Hats of Cheran!! This movie "Autograph" is very significant in my life. I felt like watching my life on screen, sort of till now at least!!

Kalyana Maalai

One of my favourite songs....beautiful lyrics and wonderful music composed by Illayaraja...evergreen songs...