How Can I??

I don't, I can't,

And I won't, Shouldn't!
I am sure, It won't happen.

Even if it does, can't allow!! 

Hug and caress you, I don't.
Kiss and touch you, I never.
Never wish to cuddle you

I don't want you
In my arms.
Damn, yet why do I trust you,
and I miss you as much.
And I remember you even more.
Sometimes and whenever
I am down and breaking down.
I look forward for you in vain

Just to pour my thoughts
And not so really secrets with you.
I cannot imagine
How it would be
With and without you.

HHmmmm physically apart
But close to my heart.

Even closer to my mind!
But I don't and I can't.
How could I?

The wall may

Have to be stronger

The fencing may

have to be taller.

How? How do I??

Can I ever?
When I had given it away
Long Long ago!!